I think I may have mentioned in my previous post that I left the full-time work world back in January (six months to this date). It's been an off-and-on again struggle, but I finally got paid for a project I finished for my former employer. It's funny, but I got more money from them working as a consultant than I did as an employee. Go figure. The money funds on Tuesday and I plan to start putting together my "look" and wardrobe, not to mention continuing therapy. Not sure I want to fully transition...I'm going to try simple crossdressing for a while to see how that goes, but that's what I hope to explore in therapy. I may be happy getting out as Jane on occasion, but I have a feeling I won't be happy with it just being part-time. We'll.
In addition, I will have enough money (and time) to attend Southern Comfort this year and plan to attend with a transman friend of mine. We are both really looking forward to it.
With this in mind I need your help! If you could point me in the right direction of books, resources, and a list of what to buy I would greatly appreciate it. Also, if you're going to Southern Comfort let me know and we'll plan to meet.
The main thing I need is something to make my hips look bigger - that and a good diet! I've seen some pads on-line, but they all look like they are built for skinny people. I'm definitely "big boned" but hope to shed some pounds in the next few months.
That's it for now girls, hope to post again real soon!
Lady Jane
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Reboot?
It's been nearly a year since I started this blog and nearly six months since my last update. A lot has been going on.
First, I quit my job to work full-time as a free-lance writer. It's worked out well so far although I've blown through my savings quicker than I thought and my former employer has been reluctant to part with some money they owe me. So, financially it's been tight, but well worth it. I work on my own and my employer has promised the money next month. It's actually quite a hefty sum - enough to pay for a full "transition" if that's what I want to do. Still not sure.
I am in "clothes" buying mode and I'm interested to see the effect hormones would have on me. Anyone else out there in their late 40s when starting on hormones? I'd like to transition, but not if I'll look like a joke. Not really sure about the kid implications either, but I think that's a topic for therapy.
Hmmmm....what else...I think I need to develop an idea of fashion-sense. I'm not very good at it, but I am looking at clothes others are wearing to see how they put together outfits. I guess part of the problem is that I like printed earth-tone tops. I guess they'd go well with jeans but we'll see. I've been shopping on craigslist so maybe I'll find something there.
That's about it for now...feel free to drop me a comment or two...especially about the age issue...
First, I quit my job to work full-time as a free-lance writer. It's worked out well so far although I've blown through my savings quicker than I thought and my former employer has been reluctant to part with some money they owe me. So, financially it's been tight, but well worth it. I work on my own and my employer has promised the money next month. It's actually quite a hefty sum - enough to pay for a full "transition" if that's what I want to do. Still not sure.
I am in "clothes" buying mode and I'm interested to see the effect hormones would have on me. Anyone else out there in their late 40s when starting on hormones? I'd like to transition, but not if I'll look like a joke. Not really sure about the kid implications either, but I think that's a topic for therapy.
Hmmmm....what else...I think I need to develop an idea of fashion-sense. I'm not very good at it, but I am looking at clothes others are wearing to see how they put together outfits. I guess part of the problem is that I like printed earth-tone tops. I guess they'd go well with jeans but we'll see. I've been shopping on craigslist so maybe I'll find something there.
That's about it for now...feel free to drop me a comment or two...especially about the age issue...
Friday, January 21, 2011
Update
Wow, I can't believe it's been so long since my last update! Things have been "on hold" and I haven't even dressed en femme for months.
Therapy -- I completed my initial assessment, was giving the green light, and referred for stage II, getting a second opinion and taking a more formal assessment. I haven't gone yet.
Second Thoughts -- I got to thinking about things and wonder if I can even make a full transition with good results? A friend of mine is trying to transition (f2m) and honestly, it's not working out too well. It's costly and just not working the way he wanted. We are about the same age and when I look at the women on these blogs it seems like the younger they are, the better the results. I want to be a woman, not a 'man in a dress.' That's discouraging.
Work -- Work has been a bear and I have taken on additional "side work" to supplement my income. The good news is that the side work has turned into full time work so I am now self-employed. I think that will help me be able to dress en femme more and work on my look.
Ex-Wife -- It hasn't helped that my ex and I have gone back-and-forth about getting together. Part of me wants that relationship with her, but she does not like the idea of me dressing at all.
So where to go from here? I think I am going to explore my options. I might shave my legs again, buy some more clothes, work on my figure and see where that goes.
Since I have more time at home I do plan to update this blog more often.
Tashi Delek!
Therapy -- I completed my initial assessment, was giving the green light, and referred for stage II, getting a second opinion and taking a more formal assessment. I haven't gone yet.
Second Thoughts -- I got to thinking about things and wonder if I can even make a full transition with good results? A friend of mine is trying to transition (f2m) and honestly, it's not working out too well. It's costly and just not working the way he wanted. We are about the same age and when I look at the women on these blogs it seems like the younger they are, the better the results. I want to be a woman, not a 'man in a dress.' That's discouraging.
Work -- Work has been a bear and I have taken on additional "side work" to supplement my income. The good news is that the side work has turned into full time work so I am now self-employed. I think that will help me be able to dress en femme more and work on my look.
Ex-Wife -- It hasn't helped that my ex and I have gone back-and-forth about getting together. Part of me wants that relationship with her, but she does not like the idea of me dressing at all.
So where to go from here? I think I am going to explore my options. I might shave my legs again, buy some more clothes, work on my figure and see where that goes.
Since I have more time at home I do plan to update this blog more often.
Tashi Delek!
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